Whenever I read through my older blog posts, more often than not, I would be stumped by the thought process behind certain posts, on what was the trigger and many a times, I couldn’t even believe it was written by me as I would never be able to attain such a mindset to write such kind ever again. The person of that moment used to feel lost forever and I never used to ponder on the reason why, thinking that anyone would feel the same in such situations. But after this recent meeting I realized the very basic facet of life – you get to mirror the people around you. It might be a paradox in itself if each of us are a mirror, but not everyone are of the reflecting kind. From what I understand about myself, I tend to imitate/copy the people I spend time with the most and my personality or psyche at any point of time, is most probably not my own. I always consider myself as an empty container that looks out for personality to be imbibed. It sounds pretty lame an excuse to dump my mistakes on others and quite a convenient one at that. But how much ever I try to figure out, what is it that makes me, I always feel that, as against the Reebok motto, I am not what I am, but rather I am who others around me are!! Probably a living kicking example of the motto “show me your friends, I will tell you what kind of person you are”.
So, idhanal sollikolvathu ennavendral, athaagapattathu magajanangalay.. you better behave well and be good for gils sake J