Each passing year, surpasses the previous year with the speed with which it whizzess past. Feels just few weeks back i went for this
outing and now..in few weeks time its bye bye 2009...SO FAST this year has gone by.
2009 year..hmm..made me realise that, whatever situations i dreamed of in 2008, aren't actually fitting me now. Life is like an expanding waistline :) how much ever you gym, the Battle of the Bulge is always won by TIME. It teaches you that, age is something that is not just in numerals but in the numerous experiences which one encounters day in and day out. Whatever held good 5 years back, sounds so boring now. I think once in a while one should just break around everything and rebuild one's castle. Else it becomes claustrophobic.
Each year, year end post podrachay, will think about something significant which happened tht year. Officela appraisal time also happens during this periodngarathu is sheer happenstance :) In either case, i wouldnt be able to dig out more than a couple of points worth mentioning. Does that mean, a WHOLE YEAR had goneby without anything significant? noteworthy? I ask myself how can it be possible??!! But come to think of it..i cant recollect more than a handful of incidents. Few meals which remains etched in memory..few calls which wud linger forever..fewer words which still remain unspent and weighing heavily in mind..few more words which proved so costly that i am still paying for it..The "NO"s where it should've been "YES" and viceversa..Personally i think, though it would be nice to LIVE every moment of life, it seems to be very few moments where i had actually "LIVE"d. Rest of the time, merely converting oxygen to carbon dioxide.
Am i livid with myself for leading such a life?? Not really. I still havent found any alternate way which can better my present lifestyle. Yeah. There were few events which literally uprooted me and almost shook the very existence out of me. Still..like a cockroach which can withstand even nuclear holocaust, life goes on... adapting to every situation so that the status quo is maintained. When you pause for a moment and wonder what the heck is that "status quo" you realise you are actually walking on a tight rope several 100 feet high and its akin to looking down. So I continue towards my unknown destination..looking out for some familiar signs of success on the way..hopefully left behind by others..wondering to myself that one day my own sign should be there on the way for others to look out for.
I think if there is one place where people can strike gold and come out with success each time, it should definitely be blog spot. There are so many "golden heart"ed (new word for OED :D ) and conscientious people here that, one might not be mistaken to think, he is in an abode of angels :) (over ice la :) u guys deserve it fully though) I think writing brings out the venom and nectar present in us..leaving us devoid of all gangrene. We became what we are originally meant to be and how much ever difficulties the real world poses, the virtual world offers us the remedy towards rectifying it. I hope and wish and pray and i am sure that 2010 will bring in more such people into my life :) and i say thanks in advance for all that.
So..all set for another rollicking year..which i think is going to be quite a ride for me as i hope to cut through many a safety net around and try to clear the comfy cobwebs of my life. And hopefully by end of 2010 i should have many more memorable moments to share :) God bless.
Evlo abstractana post!! avvvvvvvvvvvvv...konjam rants..konjam pheelings..konjam polambals..konjam thinkings..mothathula..padichi paatha enakay onum purila..ungaluku ethachum purinja sollunga :)
ajcl/athivasi :) this is my way of getting back at you 2 for putting all those i-cudnt-understand kavithai and kathai- posts :D