From minds "I"

Each passing year, surpasses the previous year with the speed with which it whizzess past. Feels just few weeks back i went for this
outing and now..in few weeks time its bye bye 2009...SO FAST this year has gone by.

2009 year..hmm..made me realise that, whatever situations i dreamed of in 2008, aren't actually fitting me now. Life is like an expanding waistline :) how much ever you gym, the Battle of the Bulge is always won by TIME. It teaches you that, age is something that is not just in numerals but in the numerous experiences which one encounters day in and day out. Whatever held good 5 years back, sounds so boring now. I think once in a while one should just break around everything and rebuild one's castle. Else it becomes claustrophobic.

Each year, year end post podrachay, will think about something significant which happened tht year. Officela appraisal time also happens during this periodngarathu is sheer happenstance :) In either case, i wouldnt be able to dig out more than a couple of points worth mentioning. Does that mean, a WHOLE YEAR had goneby without anything significant? noteworthy? I ask myself how can it be possible??!! But come to think of it..i cant recollect more than a handful of incidents. Few meals which remains etched in memory..few calls which wud linger forever..fewer words which still remain unspent and weighing heavily in mind..few more words which proved so costly that i am still paying for it..The "NO"s where it should've been "YES" and viceversa..Personally i think, though it would be nice to LIVE every moment of life, it seems to be very few moments where i had actually "LIVE"d. Rest of the time, merely converting oxygen to carbon dioxide.

Am i livid with myself for leading such a life?? Not really. I still havent found any alternate way which can better my present lifestyle. Yeah. There were few events which literally uprooted me and almost shook the very existence out of me. Still..like a cockroach which can withstand even nuclear holocaust, life goes on... adapting to every situation so that the status quo is maintained. When you pause for a moment and wonder what the heck is that "status quo" you realise you are actually walking on a tight rope several 100 feet high and its akin to looking down. So I continue towards my unknown destination..looking out for some familiar signs of success on the way..hopefully left behind by others..wondering to myself that one day my own sign should be there on the way for others to look out for.

I think if there is one place where people can strike gold and come out with success each time, it should definitely be blog spot. There are so many "golden heart"ed (new word for OED :D ) and conscientious people here that, one might not be mistaken to think, he is in an abode of angels :) (over ice la :) u guys deserve it fully though) I think writing brings out the venom and nectar present in us..leaving us devoid of all gangrene. We became what we are originally meant to be and how much ever difficulties the real world poses, the virtual world offers us the remedy towards rectifying it. I hope and wish and pray and i am sure that 2010 will bring in more such people into my life :) and i say thanks in advance for all that.

So..all set for another rollicking year..which i think is going to be quite a ride for me as i hope to cut through many a safety net around and try to clear the comfy cobwebs of my life. And hopefully by end of 2010 i should have many more memorable moments to share :) God bless.

P.S:

Evlo abstractana post!! avvvvvvvvvvvvv...konjam rants..konjam pheelings..konjam polambals..konjam thinkings..mothathula..padichi paatha enakay onum purila..ungaluku ethachum purinja sollunga :)

P.S.S:

ajcl/athivasi :) this is my way of getting back at you 2 for putting all those i-cudnt-understand kavithai and kathai- posts :D

Comments

savitha said…
First!!:)

Gils, what a writer you are!! :) I am awed!!
gils u just are wearing a garb of a joker.. u r quite intiutive and serious otherwise.. all food for thought..
savitha said…
//few more words which proved so costly that i am still paying for it..The "NO"s where it should've been "YES" and viceversa///

The Gods of small things! The very carelessly uttered words which initiated fuming etc....

//When you pause for a moment and wonder what the heck is that "status quo" you realise you are actually walking on a tight rope several 100 feet high and its akin to looking down. //
Cannot put it better!!

I cannot agree more on the living bit!!

//wondering to myself that one day my own sign should be there on the way for others to look out for.//

Wish and hope that moment is at your hand's reach, for you to grab. Until then, the experiences on the rope are worth learning.
Have a great year, Gils, with a trip here,ofcourse :)
God bless!!
Aaarti said…
:) we all go thru this... kinda reminisce abt the times that went by and look ahead to new days to come!!! :D

btw, innom 2010 varave illa, athukkulla talking abt a post at the end of 2010... kinda jumping the gun too much illa??? :P

Nice!! i too put up a post towards end of the yr with what i've achieved, done, bot, memories-happy n sad...!!kinda relive the whole year with blog buddiess...
savitha said…
//gils u just are wearing a garb of a joker.. u r quite intiutive and serious otherwise.. all food for thought..//

I Repeat!!:P
Annam said…
gilsukku soda kudduka sonnenay !!!!!!
RamMmm said…
Gils, Year end is still another 23 days away, 3 weeks to go. adhukkulla enna year end post?

But really, clear the smileys out and PSes and what I see is a real post from what you feel. Great post, sir.

yep, I can relate to a few things. the deja vu esp. Agree really about the breaking/rebuilding your castle. Getting out of a comfort zone is the most difficult thing in life.

// The "NO"s where it should've been "YES" and viceversa..

This is typically quicksand territory. The more you think about it, the more the sinking feeling.

Take care and have a good time ahead.
Annam said…
சுவாமிஜி தங்களின் போதனைகள் அனைத்தும் ஜூப்பர இருக்கு
Srivats said…
This is what the actual you da, I always had a different gils on the web to the one i meet and I can tell from this post its you.

Those wonderful words have expressed the thought process in many of our minds, I am so dumb stuck by your ability to putforth such complex stuff into readable ones.

Wishing you lot more happier, healthier and successful year ahead machaan! way to go
Annam said…
Not really. I still havent found any alternate way which can better my present lifestyle. Yeah. There were fe
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nalla thaanala iruntha thideernu ippudi aaraichila kuthichida vendiyathu .....midila engallala:)
Srivats said…
Gils, what a writer you are!! :) I am awed!!


Yes double repeat!! I feel so shy to write now
Annam said…
ela gilsu word verifi thooki vitting...berica papalinu type panna somberi thanama irukku
Annam said…
(over ice la :)
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illa ice factorya sachupputteenga:)
Annam said…
apart from kummies:)

gilsu there s much to learn from u especially the THINKING chancela greatu gilsuuu uu
Annam said…
Srivats said...
Gils, what a writer you are!! :) I am awed!!


Yes double repeat!! I feel so shy to write now
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vatsuu ithellam over muchaakum neengaley peeling shyna ....naa ellam ennathukku aavurathu:((((( aluvachiya varuthu:)
G3 said…
Hmm.. Ella varushamum idhae pozhappa pochu ungalukku.. 3 vaaarathukku munnadiyae yeara mudichiteengala neenga :P

I loved this post.. Something totally diff from ur normal posts :)))

Dont worry everything is for good only (Yaarukku goodnu kekkapudaadhu :P)

Seekiram andha valaiya kizhichittu seekiramae chennaila oru nalla valaiya paathu sikka vaazhthukkal :D
G3 said…
//Wishing you lot more happier, healthier and successful year ahead//

Repeataeeeee :D
Anu said…
whoa! That was some insight and introspection :) Couldn't have done better justice to this post.
Sundar said…
Gils (a.k.a Shankar Bhai)... I am surprised to see such serious post from you!
Now I could understand, how blogging helps to siphon out their feeling (pheelings) and thoughts!

Great Writing! Wish you a Happy and Successful New Year Ahead!
gils said…
@athivasi:
ungalukaga sillunu oru elanee parcel :)

//Gils, what a writer you are!! :) I am awed!!//

ada..ithelam overu..unga levelaam much much higher
gils said…
@ajcl:

//gils u just are wearing a garb of a joker..//

:D :D garblaam ileenga...rendumay adiyen thaan :)

// u r quite intiutive and serious otherwise.. all food for thought..//

apdiya??!! adutha post padicharpumum ithey opinion iruka pakalam :D
gils said…
///Wish and hope that moment is at your hand's reach, for you to grab. Until then, the experiences on the rope are worth learning.
Have a great year, Gils, with a trip here,ofcourse :)
God bless!!//

nanri nanri nanri :)
Shruti said…
OMG! Whatta post this is!! Like Srivats said, Even i feel ashamed :(
A post from the bottom of your heart! The philosophical thoughts u poured out, wow! awesome!!! 3 cheers to you!!
Yenakku enna ezhadharthune therila! its just AWESOME!!
gils said…
/kinda reminisce abt the times that went by and look ahead to new days to come!!! :D/

athey athey..infact bloggin helps in keeping track of things :) ithu ilati wud've missed many more things woth noting :)


//btw, innom 2010 varave illa, athukkulla talking abt a post at the end of 2010... kinda jumping the gun too much illa??? :P//

ileenga..dnt think so..paathutay irunga..before this post cud fade frm ur memory..2010 year end post wud be coming :)
gils said…
/i too put up a post towards end of the yr with what i've achieved, done, bot, memories-happy n sad...!!kinda relive the whole year with blog buddiess.../

athacuhm intha year endkula varuma?? ila goa post mathirya?
gils said…
////gils u just are wearing a garb of a joker.. u r quite intiutive and serious otherwise.. all food for thought..//

I Repeat!!:P//

neengaluma :)
gils said…
//gilsukku soda kudduka sonnenay !!!!!!//

pikaali :) nee epo sona? :)

//Gils, Year end is still another 23 days away, 3 weeks to go. adhukkulla enna year end post?//

naaama epovumay advance anne :)
gils said…
//But really, clear the smileys out and PSes and what I see is a real post from what you feel. Great post, sir.//

SIR!! Sir gils...ada ithu kuda nallathaanya iruku :D

//This is typically quicksand territory. The more you think about it, the more the sinking feeling.
/

true...unga thots kuda neria tallying :)
gils said…
//சுவாமிஜி தங்களின் போதனைகள் அனைத்தும் ஜூப்பர இருக்/

oru bothaila solarthelam bothanaiya!!! wats this pikaaali..

//This is what the actual you da, I always had a different gils on the web to the one i meet and I can tell from this post its you.//

:d athu dabil act maams :D
gils said…
// and I can tell from this post its you.//

ada pavi..apo ithana naala enamo mandabathula yaro ezhuthi kuduthu vangitu vantha mathiri solra
gils said…
//Those wonderful words have expressed the thought process in many of our minds, I am so dumb stuck by your ability to putforth such complex stuff into readable ones.//

hehehe..nanri nanri

//nalla thaanala iruntha thideernu ippudi aaraichila kuthichida vendiyathu .....midila engallala:)//

athu apdithaan..apo apo...kandukapdaathu
gils said…
//Yes double repeat!! I feel so shy to write now//

ithelaam overu soliputen

//.berica papalinu type panna somberi thanama irukku//

nee vera..ithelaam poatay nethu rendu anony pasanga ulla poontaanga!!!
gils said…
//illa ice factorya sachupputteenga:)/

hehehe :D

//gilsu there s much to learn from u especially the THINKING chancela greatu gilsuuu uu//

:) return icea :)
gils said…
/vatsuu ithellam over muchaakum neengaley peeling shyna ....naa ellam ennathukku aavurathu:((((( aluvachiya varuthu:)//

adapavingala..maathi maathi pheelinga
gils said…
// Ella varushamum idhae pozhappa pochu ungalukku.. 3 vaaarathukku munnadiyae yeara mudichiteengala neenga :P//

avvvvvvvvvv...this makes me realise how long i've been bloggin!!!


//I loved this post.. Something totally diff from ur normal posts :)))//

:) g3 vaayaal bramma rishi :D

//Dont worry everything is for good only (Yaarukku goodnu kekkapudaadhu :P)//

athaana paathen

//Seekiram andha valaiya kizhichittu seekiramae chennaila oru nalla valaiya paathu sikka vaazhthukkal :D//

:))) silvandu sikkum..siruthai sikaaathu
gils said…
/whoa! That was some insight and introspection :) Couldn't have done better justice to this post./

:) nanri kuriviyaaray


//Gils (a.k.a Shankar Bhai)... I am surprised to see such serious post from you!
Now I could understand, how blogging helps to siphon out their feeling (pheelings) and thoughts//

nanri nanri..adutha varusham unga blogla pakalam :)
gils said…
//OMG! Whatta post this is!! Like Srivats said, Even i feel ashamed :(
A post from the bottom of your heart! The philosophical thoughts u poured out, wow! awesome!!! 3 cheers to you!!
Yenakku enna ezhadharthune therila! its just AWESOME!!//

???ashamaeda??? avvvvvvvvv....apdi ennatha ezhuthiteenu elarum ipdi pheelaagreenganu pirila!!
Shruti said…
""apdi ennatha ezhuthiteenu elarum ipdi pheelaagreenganu pirila""
Ne yezhudhinatha neeye padichu paru unakku piriyum....cha puriyum!! :P
Annam said…
wats this pikaaali..pikaali :) nee epo sona? :)
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ela gilsuuu...thayavu seythu new year resolution pikaalingira word use panna mattenu edu.....
or
mottai kattaiya pesu.....simply ask nee eppo sonna.........illaatt i I non stop crying aama solliputten
gils said…
//unakku piriyum....cha puriyum!! :P//

:D sutham

//ela gilsuuu...thayavu seythu new year resolution pikaalingira word use panna mattenu edu.....
or
mottai kattaiya pesu.....simply ask nee eppo sonna.........illaatt i I non stop crying aama solliputten//

haahhaah :) cudnt help it...u wud always be pikaali to me :)
Vidya said…
You know what Vidhya. I know to a small extent about whatever you went through during the past year. For what it is worth, you managed the entire year with a positive outlook that makes me proud of you!

You are right about Blogging. I find it very cathartic. Don't stop blogging okay!

Have a fantastic year ahead! :D

Vidya
That was a brilliant post Gils. Agree with you. Cant believe 2009 is almost over and I feel it went really fast!!
gils said…
@viddie:
:) dank u

@avadakedavara:
hey thank u..and velgum bak :)
Swaram said…
I second Appu! What a prolific writer u r Gils :)

I think writing brings out the venom and nectar present in us..leaving us devoid of all gangrene. Beautifully expressed :)

Gud luck for all that u wish to do in 2010. May u hv a wonderful yr :) God bless u and pls keep enlightening us Gilsananda :)
gils said…
//Gud luck for all that u wish to do in 2010. May u hv a wonderful yr :) God bless u and pls keep enlightening us Gilsananda :)//

thanku madam meejic :)
Vishnu said…
ungalaukku peter um varuma.. ennaku ippodan theriyum.. kalakeenteenga ponga..
lol @ merely converting o2 to co2 and cockroach which can withstand nuclear holocaust.. sir.. a few more posts like these.. was very tempting to read..
gils said…
//ungalaukku peter um varuma.. //

!!! ithu kaampleementa insultanay pirila :D aana entha kalathula itha pathilaam naama yosichirukom..veerargal vaazhkaiyil ithelama jagajam

// sir.. a few more posts like these.. was very tempting to read..//

few morea!!! avvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv

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