He was standing and wondering from the very edge of the cliff of confusion.
"Intha "purpose" "purpose" nu solraangalay...the ONE thing that is the basis for everyones life...that thing, that which drive people to wake up every day and look forward to that day..that which motivates them and makes them feel worthwhile..that which justifies their very existence...that which makes ones life meaningful...yen en lifela mattum athu ilaamaye poachu??"
HE felt totally at loss with himself with mind whirring at full throttle.
Ellaarum schooluku ponaanga..avanum ponaan. Or rather was sent to. Classmates computers padikanumnu aasapataanga. He went along with them. Aprum engineering, IIT nu ponaanga. For once in his life he didnt follow the mob. Ippo avann friends oru orutharum irukara range paatha, it may not be the best of decisions he ever made. But a very satisfying and happy one, he felt. Three years, where he went after the only thing he could ever do right in his life.
Again, vedhalam murungai maram eri, thirumbavum followed the aattu manthai and fell in the same kuttai as his class mates. Enna padikarom, ethukku padikaromnu puriaama oru 3 years oattinathu thaan micham. Itha padicha intha velaikku thaan poganumnu oru basic idea kooda illama oru post graduation panna oray aal avana thaan irupaan. Just another course. Just another classroom study. Ipdi ellamay just another caseavay thonithay ozhia, he never felt passionate about them. Infact, it wasnt even for the money that learning those courses might earn. Till date he can't figure out what made him jump into that bottomless pit. Mob mentality maybe. In a group of 80 people if 60 go for one choice, mind automatica accepts it as right.
Elaarum velai thedinaanga..veri thanama thedinaanga...Everyone around were abuzz with excitement whenever any placement person came. Appovum seriousness uraikaama kadanay nu he went and wrote those exams and tests and took the first job that came his way. All his friends thought, lucky bugger, he will settle soon. Freshera pona, enga place pannuvaanga..entha technologyla poduvaangannu eagerness and curiosityoda motha batchum was waiting. Appovum oru interest ilaama eno thaano nu kudutha velaya pannittu, daily office kelambrapo eppoda veetuku povomnu busla yosichikittay..evening veetuku vantha udanay..naaliku officela enna panna poromnu yosanaiyoda sila kaalam odichi. Idam neria maarithu..aana avan manasu maaravay illa. Konjam konjama kooda iruntha makkalaam singlelenthu double triplenu status maara aarambichaanga. Every one went after their personal life in full vigour. Veedu..car..wife..babiesnu ..lifela settle aagarathunna ithelaam thaan pannanum nu everyone did.
Ippo varaikkum onnu puria maatenguthu..intha template thaan lifea? thanakkunu oru family....wife kooda sandais and samaathanams...relatives..functions...pulla kuttis..diapers..feeding bottle....kaathu kuthu...doctors.. clinics..school admission.....college seat nu ipdi oray maathiri thaan ellar lifeum irukku. How come they are not feeling bored? Aduthavan enna panraangaratha paathu paathu ee adichaan copyaa evlo life!!! oru stageku mela copy adikarathu kooda bore aagaatha?? or probably is aping others success, the most passionate thing in the world?? oru kaalathula kudumba thozhil nu irunthuchi. Thaatha clerk..appa clerk..paiyan clerk nu kudmbamay gumaastha kudumbama irukum...bank velai paakara generations...secretary velai paakara generations..musically inclined group...ipdi parambarai parambaraiya oray velaya pannitrunthu..oru generation mattum revolt panni vera stream try panna aarambichi sila per would've failed. Maybe its time to break the mould again??!! Maybe this is the reason for all those space explorations? to find out if any alien being has a better lifestyle?? For almost every sci fi movie depicts them to have better infra and tech than us. oru vela kathailalaam solra mathiri more than avanga science and technology..avanga lifestyle la pathi terinjika thaan makkal avlo eagera thedraangalo? atleast avangalachum differenta ethachum panrangalangara thedal?
The wind was howling in his ears. He felt as if it was trying to talk to him. He wanted to shout louder than the wind. Sun was slowly setting behind the hills. Another day was coming to end.
P.S: Was reading an interesting article on a similar theme..it was almost the size of a novel. Athulenthu oru kutti excerpt mathiri potruken. More than an excerpt its my take on that article :)