A time to wait...

P.S:
Ok..before u proceed further...this composition was a forward i got a few days back. I've modified it a lot with my own mokka views thrown all around. Check it out.

P.S.S:
Ethukum oru pillow pakkathula vacihkunga :)


Its 8:15 a.m. and I stand here in the bus stop waiting for the office
bus to arrive. I stand here in the same manner as I did a few years
back waiting for bus to my college..before that to my school.. Little did I know then that things would change so much in so few a year.. the sky under which I am standing seems to be looking at me and smiling .. It is perhaps the only thing
that has acted as a witness .. watching the transformation.

I've no complaints for the change though. It is destiny, or may be you could call it life. Yes. Life. Oru matter puria matenguthu. Ethanayo pera daily basisla meet pannalum thanimaiyagavay irukum sila nodigal. Kootathil Thanimai. Thanimaiyil kootam koodi nerisal undakkum ninaivugal. Yes. Ninaivugal. Minda defragmentation panna evlo nalla irukum. Venumgara ninaivugala save panikitu vendathatha delete panni thoor vara kudiya vazhi iruntha vaazhkkai vera mathiri irukum. Itho bus vanthirichi.

After picking my usual corner seat..i check out the crowd standing out in the humid sun..waiting patiently for their bus of opportunity.I rarely notice the person sitting next to me, for its going to be yet another stranger or may be you could say another acquaintance. Sathama alarikituruntha Radio Citya thideernu off panitar driver. Irritating. Perusa isai piriyanlam ila. But inimay micha irukara journeya en ninaivugaloda payanikanumnu nenacha erichala iruku.

I can't help thinking about the short and physically tiring trips to college. Well.
It's a paradox to call a distance of 30 KMs "short", but that is how it always seemed. Therinja mugangal. Sogamna ennanu theriyatha pagal pozhuthugal. Artham puriyamal siritha jokugal. Yaennu theriyama poata sandaigal. pudikaamal paditha thervugal. Sruthi seramal paadia paatukkal. Arangeratha naatiyangal. Vivarika mudiyatha vasavugal. Somehow..it never felt like a journey. It was life in all its glory. Cut adikarathukaga 60 km up and down travel pannalum end of the day saathichitomngara nenapu..Ippo flight pudichi velinatuku poi verva sintha uzhaichalum vara matenguthu. Those pleasant memories of college are in itself good enough to save me from the misery of this bus journey.

Office vanthachu. Poliyaana oru acknowledgement to all the known strangers that I see as I approach my cubicle. A few of my colleagues greet me with their morning wishes and as always, i mumble back. Discussions jump to the weekend plans and I wonder what I'd do over the weekend. It would be just another day staring at the mobile, wishing it would ring and bring back some wonderful moments that are now missing in life or maybe the safer option would be to come to office, for it's my new founded asylum these days.

Sila varusham munnadi somehow I was always busy. Weekendo weekdayo..never made any difference. Kaalam urundodiyathunu booksla padichirupom. Athu nejamavay odra mathiri irukum. Ana ipolam stroke vantha patienta nagara marukuthu. Oru stageku aprum..vazhkaiyil ninaivu matum thaan kuda varuthu. Nanbargal pagaivargal paathavanga pazhagiyavanga ellarum verum ninaivu bimbangala thaan theiryaranga. Pudu nabargal pudu nanbargalanalum thaamarai mel thanneraai thaan thonrugirathu. I do meet people who r so good that I could tell them anything and everything, but
I dont find a person to whom i needn't say things ... friends who just know me.

Rarely i get to talk to some of my old mates over fone. There is always an uneasy pause. Its either due to paucity of words or time but never due to the relationship.
As I sip coffee from the coffee mug, which incidentally cleans itself everytime i pour coffee in it and has a permanent brown stain, watching the cars coming out of the basement, like ants in search of sugar. I tell myself. Maybe this time will also change and the good days will be back. The darkest nights prepare us for the brightest of mornings.

Change is the way of life. And there is no other way but for it. Maybe somewhere deep down even the near and dear ones i miss are also waiting for such a time.
And I keep on waiting....

Comments

prithz said…
Nice thoughts man....

The memory thing reminds me of the movie 'Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.' Erasing specific memories.. and the cost of losing the good ones along with the bad ones.. pretty abstract tho...

and abt change.. i just came across this quote in RD - "Change is the process by which the future invades our life"... :D
gils said…
//Change is the process by which the future invades our life"... //

cute quote...chancela
Srivats said…
Nalla erukku, being away from family i also feel the same way a lot.

but it makes me realise that we as community dont intereact much openly with others and thats why we miss all the good things!

Like the first few dialogues of Munna bai 2 - We have atleast 10 different ways of reaching a person but still we feel apart. We know what happens in US but not our neighbour.

Dont the change has to start from we being more open?

You see what you want to see - Have you listn to Madona's - Frozen ?

Sari adhallem erukattum time for u to get married i guess - dont wait for good things make them happen ;)
Anonymous said…
@srivats:

dear pot,

do cleanse urself

luv kettle :)

adai..suthi suthi kalayanathula thaan anthu mudiyanuma..maathi yosi boy(s). madonna frozena!! enamolam solra onum velangala
Dreamzz said…
:) ஹ்ம்ம்....
Divya said…
\\Therinja mugangal. Sogamna ennanu theriyatha pagal pozhuthugal. Artham puriyamal siritha jokugal. Yaennu theriyama poata sandaigal. pudikaamal paditha thervugal. Sruthi seramal paadia paatukkal. Arangeratha naatiyangal. Vivarika mudiyatha vasavugal.\\

read these lines.....twice,
athu oru kaana kaalam mathry oru feel vanthathu!!

romba alaga wording potirukireenga intha particular lines la,
tamil la ithey lines apdiyey type panina......sooperu aa iruku Gils:))

tamil la intha words use panni...naalu naalu variya madaki madaki eluthina, athu oru jooperuu kavithai aagidum, theriyumo???

vasavugal=thittukkal .......correct aa meaning??

Nala iruku post:))
gils said…
//vasavugal=thittukkal .......correct aa meaning??//
eggjactly..we get introduced to lot of "nalla" vaarthaigal at college...hot wordsnu theriyum but..meaning neria puriaathu..athukaga antha line
mgnithi said…
Gils:

Romba feelinga irukke intha post. Ennoda friends listla pasanga ellam foreign poitaanga.. ponnunga ellam kalyanam aagi vera oorukku poitaanga.. so kind of boring now..

It so happens some day i have my coffee alone at the cafeteria.. during that time memories of ten people filling up the entire table for a coffee flashes across my mind and there is a smile in my lips for which the onlookers do not know the meaning.
gils said…
//there is a smile in my lips for which the onlookers do not know the meaning.
//
yarachum antha pakkam gummthalakava poirupanga..avangala siteadiakra saakuku ipdi oru dialoguea apdinu silaper kepaanga..so ushaara irunga :D
gils said…
// Ennoda friends listla pasanga ellam foreign poitaanga.. ponnunga ellam kalyanam aagi vera oorukku poitaanga.. so kind of boring now..
//

eggjactly same situation nanbaray..
mgnithi said…
Gilsu:
oru weekkuku oru template maathareenga pola..
G3 said…
Couldn't stop myself from saying
"An awesome post"

(Edhir katchiya irundhaalum naanga paaratuvomilla :P)

Felt like I was reading my own mind :)

//I do meet people who r so good that I could tell them anything and everything, but
I dont find a person to whom i needn't say things ... friends who just know me. //

200 % true:))

//And I keep on waiting....//
That get's life going :)
G3 said…
// mgnithi said...

Gils:

Romba feelinga irukke intha post. Ennoda friends listla pasanga ellam foreign poitaanga.. ponnunga ellam kalyanam aagi vera oorukku poitaanga.. so kind of boring now..

It so happens some day i have my coffee alone at the cafeteria.. during that time memories of ten people filling up the entire table for a coffee flashes across my mind and there is a smile in my lips for which the onlookers do not know the meaning.//

Atcharam pisagaamal repeatae :)
G3 said…
//Blogger mgnithi said...

Gilsu:
oru weekkuku oru template maathareenga pola..//

Naan oru postukku oru templateannu kekka vandhen.. adhayum mgnithi kettutaar.. inimae 1st vandha dhan sondhama comment poda kooda chance pola ;)
G3 said…
//Divya said...

tamil la intha words use panni...naalu naalu variya madaki madaki eluthina, athu oru jooperuu kavithai aagidum, theriyumo??? //

En divya summa irukka singatha (???!!!!) seendi vidareenga.. appuram avaru idhu dhaan saakunnu kavitha ezhudha okkandhuda poraru.. (Adhulayum aduthavangalukku puriya koodaadhunnu oru naalaikku oru line mattum dhaan ezhudhuvaaru.. righta gils ;))
gils said…
//Couldn't stop myself from saying
"An awesome post"//
vasistar vaayal bramma rishi :)
//Naan oru postukku oru templateannu kekka vandhen.. adhayum mgnithi kettutaar.. //
commentayum g3 panreengallay :)
Divya said…
\\//Divya said...

tamil la intha words use panni...naalu naalu variya madaki madaki eluthina, athu oru jooperuu kavithai aagidum, theriyumo??? //

En divya summa irukka singatha (???!!!!) seendi vidareenga.. appuram avaru idhu dhaan saakunnu kavitha ezhudha okkandhuda poraru.. (Adhulayum aduthavangalukku puriya koodaadhunnu oru naalaikku oru line mattum dhaan ezhudhuvaaru.. righta gils ;))\\

@G3,

ipdi eththi vittu vedikai pakanum G3, .....appo than sila pala nala kavignargal, kalaignargal ellam uruvahuvanga,
thiramaigal velichathuku varum,

nan solrathu purinthatho:))
Divya said…
gils,intha temp....nalla iruku,
tubaknu mathidatheenga,
konja naal unga blog alaga irunthutu potumey:))
Anonymous said…
//nan solrathu purinthatho//

uhum..ithukellam masiyaratha ila

//konja naal unga blog alaga irunthutu potumey//
ada..intha mathiri holi adicha mathiri iruntha thaan ungaluku pudikuma?
good post, especially

//Oru stageku aprum..vazhkaiyil ninaivu matum thaan kuda varuthu. Nanbargal pagaivargal paathavanga pazhagiyavanga ellarum verum ninaivu bimbangala thaan theiryaranga. Pudu nabargal pudu nanbargalanalum thaamarai mel thanneraai thaan thonrugirathu. //

sariya chonnenga :)
enakum bus journey 1 hr mela agum, epavum pazhaya nyabagangal vara time ithu than.. athuvum paatu ketutey pogumbothu ninaivugal ellam ananthama irukum.

sila ninaivugal baarathayum sila inbathayum kudukum arumayana payanam :)
Srivats said…
yaaruppa endha anaymous namakkulla vandhu kalasittu porar
gils said…
//yaaruppa endha anaymous namakkulla vandhu kalasittu porar//

adapavi..anony=me=gils..always..athu enoda inoru id mathiri :D

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