Of miracles and other things

Ever felt like your heart is about to beat itself to a bursting stage in pressure? You are so much stressed out that you feel like the weight of the world is on your head and shoulders and whether you shrugged or not, it is going to crush you into a pulp, one part of soul at a time? The power of fear and how all encompassing it can be making every sane thing scarier and scarier things deadly? 

There is a saying that you can measure the brightness of light and can increase or decrease it but the same never applies to darkness, for its simply the absence of light. To my knowledge there is no measure for darkness. But few weeks back, i felt i had found the measure of it and it deals in sanity as its unit of measurement. When you feel suffocatingly stressed out, you can actually see darkness in bright sunlight. In times like this, mind seeks divine intervention when logic rules omnipresent, unleashing the darkness or rather not making you look for ways to get out of such situations.

I happened to witness two such miracles in a span of two months and each time, i actually said the words "i can't understand why this is happening the way it is happening"!!! Typically, it would be a cry of lament, but on both these occasions, it was one of shell shocked surprise, marveling at the sheer timing of those events. The folks who rescued me from those situations deserve a special place in heaven and i want to make sure i never ever forget about them. I shamelessly admit that as much as i remember the bad deeds done to me, i frequently over ride the good deeds done to me by many and after a while, it becomes just another deed, while the bad deeds makes one believe that nothing good has ever happened in life. And even those people responsible for those good deeds fade out in course of time. I even forget what was the bad deed but always remember the person who might've caused me harm at that point of time and simply avoid them. But this time, i am reasonably sure, i have etched these folks in mind and even if they turn out to be super villains in real life, i am indebted to them for their timely support. There is a thirukural that states, help which is rendered timely is greater than even the universe. It couldn't be more accurate in my case and my heartfelt thanks and prayers to god for showing me these folks in my times of need.